When God closes the door on one thing, He leaves many windows open :) In my reflections this week I remembered this quote which says something like "God answers prayers in 3 ways: 1) He gives you exactly what you ask for, knowing that you deserve it. 2) It may take a while, but He gives you what you ask for at the right time, which teaches you patience and humility. 3) He doesn't give you what you ask for but instead He gives you something else, something that He knows is best for you." If we have little faith or if we are impatient (which most of us are) and numbers 2 or 3 happens, we often give up easily and we blame Him when things don't go the way we want them to.
In the last 3 weeks or so, I was bombarded with small problems, which grew bigger and bigger and bigger until it almost made me give up on something that I've invested my time, money, body and even my soul for the past couple of years. My health was getting compromised too and I did not want to be a burden to anybody, specially my family. The other night, after a heart to heart talk with my sister, brother-in-law, and my Mom, I prayed for a sign, something that would tell me that enough is enough. I asked my Dad's help too, as I would when he was still with us. The very next morning, I got one, or so I thought. I was both surprised and hurt. Surprised because it was so fast and hurt because it meant that I would be losing something that has meant so much to me since I started it. I said that my decision was final, but I was mistaken. It wasn't the end. It indeed was a sign, but not a sign for me to give up, but instead it was a wake up call. In just the 2 days that passed after getting the "sign", I was directed to research online for something that could help me get back on my feet again. I remember I did this before but I never got the result that I was looking for. But just after a few clicks, there it was.
And so, my dear friends, here I am again, starting over. No, not from scratch, since I have the foundation already, but starting over with a clean slate. The wake up call was for me to work things out and do everything the correct and right way. Although it feels like I was slapped on the wrist by my Dad, scolding me for letting things slide after he passed. But at the same time, I feel blessed and thankful that he is still there to guide me. Thus, I conclude that the DOOR to my problems is now closed, and the windows to better and brighter opportunities are now opening.
